Hey , im sorry.

Hello peeps! Its been like approximately 4 months since I last published a blog post. Well, life hasn't been the best for these few months. Lots of problems and well, things changes. People changes and well shit happens. I feel that time is moving too fast, everyone is all too busy earning money and all. This prevent them from actually enjoying life.

Maybe why im different from the rest is that I appreciate everything , even the smallest things. Simple compliments, motivating words , efforts. I appreciate all these. It's like a constant reminder to myself that im cared for and loved. As times passes by , these efforts diminishes and well thats why I get so defensive. I want the person to continue being the person I molded in my mind. However , what I have miscalculated is that not everyone have the same heart as me. Everyone changes , yet im still there wondering what is wrong with them. The problem is , I'm the one who fails to comprehend that people are not who they are. They changes everyday and well ya.

Maybe I wish is for someone to continue with these efforts , no matter how tired they are. Maybe I just wish for someone to mend my brokenness while I mend him/hers too. Maybe I just need someone who is always there, no matter how much I push them , how much I scold them.

Maybe I just want to feel alive.

To my monkion buddy aka Jasper Yee : Im sorry for constantly being clingly and constantly wanting to talk to you Even getting angry when you my buddy dont reply me. Well the reason is shown here and I thank you  for still being there even though I always get emo and angry because of that. Especially when im the one who keeps kp-ing you everyday. HAHAHA. I actually miss the days we train tgt , talk cock tgt and just practically annoy each other in anyway possible. HAHA and also when we spar tgt and remember our hiking plan? Hopefully we are able to fulfil it someday. Even though I practically known you for going one year only but I thank you for your guidance and help okay? Thanks for always being there when I need you last sem. (NOT THIS SEM). We are brothers and buddies for life man ! I cannot beat your other bros who are there for you like dk how many years but if you need me. Im practically here ,  just call me 'shawn doggy" and im practically there for you hahahaa. Try to reply me sometimes la , I just want to chat with you mannn. Lastly , Love you my buddy ❤️.

To esther : You could be shocked why you are here when its doesnt involves you , but sorry for what happened last time and remember we arent a hi-bye friendship. Hey , we are friends for 5years , best friends I meant. Close to 6 years. We been through ups and downs together. There was one point where we broke off friendship but hey we are back again. But i have never once not care about you last sem, you know it's hurts alot to ignore someone I love as a best friend so badly man but HAHA, dont worry man. Im here forrrr youuuuuuuuu, anything just tell me too! Looking forward to more outing tgt as TEAM YES again if possible and also a staycation tgt with jasper and all okay! ❤️❤️.

Anyway , MSA is coming soon. I hope my friends are able to do well and get good results! Goodluck guys and also christmas is coming!!!! I love christmas ❤️❤️❤️❤️😆. Bye peeps!

"Enjoy the little things in life because one day you"ll look back and realize they were the big things." 

Life have been tough for me.

Hello peeps. It's been a long time since I blogged anything new. 5 months since I last blogged. So for the few months , I been through alot of shits. The few months was really tough for me. I got into friendship problems and got depressed because of that. I lost people who I thought was going to be there for me forever. Maybe not lost but well the feelings faded. This incident affected me very deeply but luckily because of this. I met new friends who are there for me. Who promised to always there for me, who have shown me that even though I lost people , I gained better people. Such examples are Jasper - My dog buddy , Theophilus - My soulmate , Qifang , Jermaine and many more. I thank you guys from the bottom of heart okay. Thanks for being there when i needed someone , thanks for cheering me up and freeing up ur time to talk to me even though I was sad almost every day??? HAHA. Thanks for knocking some sense into me and thanks for being my friend and dog buddy and soulmate. Lastly, thanks for always telling me stupid things and just making me laugh with your lame jokes (especially theo HAHA) and just basically being sarcastic to me.(true friends do that yo)  Remember, I'll be there if you guys need me.

So enough of what I've been going through. It's time for what happened on 21st September 2015. Yesterday was a special day for me! Do you know why? Obviously you don't. Haha okay so yesterday was my first ever staycation with my polymates and yes it was really fun. We did had alot of fun yesterday from playing cards to "tau-poking" each other and drinking and to not sleeping and listening to each other problems and just talking basically about life. Basically yesterday was a very happy day for me. I dont feel the stress or anything.It was one of the days that I truly feel relaxed and just happy.I wish I could stay there longer. Even though it was a short staycation but I really enjoyed it except for the part where we had to waste some much time finding the place HAHA. I will post the photos when I have the time.

So to end off the post , Life has been not that smooth sailing for me but I'm slowly healing and I've got good friends , brothers and people who are there for me. That's enough for me. One day everything is gonna be alright and I also know that my friendships with these people will last. I just know it. 

Friends come and go but true friends stay when you're at your lowest and lift you up to the highest.


Bye ,
Shawn.

Oblivion

Hi guys ! So its been long since I last blogged , so ya . Time has been such a bitch , omg its already april and soon school gonna start ! Im so gonna miss the holidays D: . This few days I've been going out with a few friends of mine and have not have the time to rest and relax , but staying at home is so much boring then going out or going to work (irony) . Speaking of work , Liezel and Suhaili is leaving very soon . Same for Yuki and Ah Wei . NOOOOOOOOOO! Idw them to leave sia , If they leave , then spageddies would be ruled by the tyrant (no gonna named the person ) . Luckily a new shift leader came ! Ash was her nickname as her full name is damn weird (literally damn weird ) . So yesterday I went out with Yingying and Esther . We met up and ate Sushi Express , Drank Koi , walk around jcube and JEM and sat on top of the rink listening to songs and testing each other (wow what a life right ) . After that we went to Spageddies and saw Anna And Liezel (omg anna ) . For some reason Dzul and Sue was not there (Dzul should be in the office , slacking like a bitch and not helping or shitting . For sue she should be somewhere else ) . Anyway , Im bored of blogging so bye . 

- I wanna see your face , see you , without you , my life is lonely...-

Shawn .

A wolf in a sheep costume :|

Let me tell you guys a story . There was once a sheep that is different from the rest , the sheep is darker and looks weird than the rest . However , this led to the other sheeps to feel pity toward that sheep . As time goes by , some of the sheeps are slowly killed off by the wolf in the sheep clothing , but none of the sheeps suspected the sheep that is different as they don't believe this kind of sheep would do anything to harm its own kind . One day , one of the sheep saw the wolf in the sheep clothing eating its own kind but by the time it's too late , the sheeps are all dead . So the moral of the story is that looks can be deceiving , people acting kind doesn't meant that the person is good hearted . Be careful towards this kind of people as they are more dangerous then those Backstabber . Stay alert as these kind of guys are all around us . Thats all guys , ciao !

Too fast

Hello guys ! I'm back again haha so today we all got our course placement and I was got my third choice of pharmaceutical science in RP . Kinda disappointed cause I want to get NGEE Ann Biomedical so I'm gonna appeal again . So back to serious business . Time is moving to fast for comfort . I'm so afraid , really afraid . I can't imagine one day leaving these good friends , bros , my family members . A goodbye for me is so hard , I already lost a friend and I cannot lose all these people in my life too . They are my guide to the darkness in my heart , without them my heart will already be consumed by my own inner darkness . Can someone tell me what to do , the future is uncertain and this makes me scared . But anyway , life is still great and I will make memories with my friends and family members . Back to other stuff , I'm currently watching this Drama called 'Master's Sun' . It's a story about this lady who has the ability to see ghost and this guy who is able to dispel the ghost that the lady is able to see by touching her and it's really interesting and funny ! Go watch if you guys are free . Ok , that's all ! Back to watching my Drama . Ciao!

- In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on. -

- Robert Frost

Shawn .

Uss trip . (Day3OfShawnAdventure)

Hello guys ! I'm back and I'm here to talk about my trip to USS! If you guys don't know what uss stands for . It stands for Universal Studio Singapore . Ok , back to main point ! So we decided to go on uss on Tuesday which is 20th Jan . Ok so on that day , I woke up late (hehe oops) so our trip to uss was postpone to abit later but first we went to BB Mac to have our breakfast (I eat like damn fast please) and after that we rode to Buona Vista so as to change to habourfront . (Since it was a sch day , not much ppl :D ) . So when we reached the Habourfront , it was such a beautiful place and the scenery was so amazing (literally amazing) and we felt damn good as we don't have to go school and we get to enjoy the beautiful scenery ! Once we reached there , I took some photos ! While we are walking toward the Resort World Sentosa . We were playing afool with each other HAHAHAA . Then there was this couple who asked if we got any spare change but neither me or Ruying have but luckily Esther have (wow that's fantastic) . So we went in and slowly slowly we reached our destination ! (USS) . We immediately went in and we walk around and we saw this roller coaster which is like a mini dragon rollercoaster ! We straight away went in but sadly . It's only two seat per row so sadly I had to sit with a kid /: . However the ride was very fun and we enjoyed it ! So we went walking around after finishing this ride and STRAIGHT AWAY I meant STRAIGHT . We went to ride the mummy ride ! Woooooo . Mummy was freaking duple fun I swear . We all was screaming at some part of the ride cause it was so fun . (We were stuck with the first row or the last row and idk why !!!! ) After that , we went on to play a few more rides as the CYLON and human was closed (zzzzz) . We played the Jurassic and Sucker was splashed with water for the two times we played (weeeee) . We went on to the played a few more rides and after that we went to have some small snacks (photo below) and we continue our mummy rides with some challenges (whoever lose must do a challenge , SUCKER lost HAHAHAAHAHAH ) . After all that , we went back around 5+ but the train was so damn crowded we had to wait for almost three trains until we were able to board 
(damn) and oh YA we saw shanice (ew). Overall , it was an enjoyable day with my fellow suckers :D . Lastly some photos to end off .

Thats all guys . Will blog again on other stuffs !  Ciao ! 

-Shawn 

Tired , restless nights

Hello guys ! I'm back ! Trying out a new font colour (hehe) . Anyway , today was so tiring for me (lol everyday I also very tired one HAHAHAAHA). Work was alright , went to work and saw Liezel (long have I not seen her !!!! )  and also saw Yingying , Dzul was supposed to be there too but he was  nowhere at sight (common lol) . So anyway yingying was cleaning the cups at the bar , so I went there and help her after I have changed and we keep talking nonsense and keep laughing . (Suckering at action hahahaha ) . So we continue talking nonsense and after that the food arrived and at the same time , Esther arrived . (Dzul was back at sight HAHAHAHA ) . After that we continue talking nonsense TGT until yingying left and Yanni appeared haha . Overall , a tiring and fun day at work . Trm will be a super tiring day for me , yingying and Esther . THE thought of overflowing customers . DIE .  The thought of running around like mad monkeys looking for banana . Sigh . The thought of carrying heavy plates and finding the table number as fast as possible . Wow , seems tiring already Haix . It's gonna be such a tiring night TMR . Pray for me pls ppl (Many thanks :) ) . Oh YA , Fhe is leaving for Orchard central and well I will miss her sigh . Hope she comes back ): . Ok , got to go , bye guys and thanks for reading this post (even though some of you guys are not reading it willingly Hahahaha)